2018 - my thankful note

Epilepsy

I am going to do my SSC (Student Selected Component) on Epilepsy. Tomorrow is the day I am going to see my potential supervisor. Hope everything goes well.

I am very interested with brain as I had always thought that what defines our individuality, personality, uniqueness have its roots and come from the brain. If the brain is slightly faulty or some parts went amiss, are we still ourselves although some of our personalities are gone.

What is being ourselves after all? Is it really from brain or actually from what is in the soul? Who are we without brain and who are we without soul?

Arghh, my brain hurts thinking about this.

18 things In KYUEM

Assalamualaikum.

I studied A Level in this very peaceful and beautiful college, Kolej Yayasan UEM. I love my life there because there were so many things that I have learnt throughout my stay. So, here are a few pictures in KY.
 There are just so many things that you could do there.

The beautiful green KY field

1. Join as many activities as you can. Sabah Charity Outreach (SCORE)

2.  Explore the Lost World of Lembah Beringin with the fabulous friends.

           

 3. Crawl under the Chalet (ju-On version). I doubt that this could still be done considering that there is no more open space under the furnished chalet.

4. Charity Outreach Trip to aboriginal village.

5. Watch performances. This one was taken during Dikir Barat night.

6. Join camps and get to know others better and of course get to know yourselves even better. There are Muslim Youth Camp, Muslim Leadership Camp and Muslim Overseas Camp.

 7. Expedition. Duke of Edinburgh. I went to Gunung Brinchang(Cameron Highland), Kalumpang, and the hardest climb was at Bukit Kutu.

 8. Shower with field water sprinkler and anxiously waiting for it .

 9. Be part of Decoration Team during Dinners. This one was during College Bday Celebration with the theme of harry Potter Decoration.

 10. Eco Trips- Perlis

 11. Almost all celebrations in Malaysia. Enjoy Raya Celebration the most because of the FOOD!!!

 12. Enjoy the beautiful sky- After Subuh prayer

 13. Experience different seasons- jerebu, blazing summer, spring, autumn, wet

14. Jog around college- Did not jog much, but if you are one of the frequent joggers, KY would be an awesome place for jogging.Prefer jogging in the morning before class. I have always admired the teachers and staff who are committed enough to wake up and jog, esp the not-yet-Muslims who have the choice to enjoy the pleasure of their bed as company. We, as Muslims must always start our day early during fajr.

 15. Kyasu-ing in your room. I don't really like going to the Resource Centre apart from during the Real Exam period.

16. Buying trees for KY Green Day

17. Get new experience such as this!!! *During KIWEE  -KYUEM Islamic Week

 18. Be a part of an awesome organization, club or anything apart from the HOUSE (a TOPAZIAN). I joined Student Council.

There are a lot more things that I have and haven't done there.What I am trying to say is I miss KY and its people. To the juniors, Good luck and make the best out of your stay. Enjoy.

Cardiff University Offer

Alhamdulillah.

Jalannya berliku penuh dugaan berdurikan rintangan,

Pernah menangis bukan sekali,

Tuhan anugerahkanku nikmat,

Yang mungkin juga satu ujian,

Ujian diri dan insan tersayang,

Berapakah harga menghapuskan kehausan ini?

Berapakah harga segelas ilmu ini?

Tidak mungkin terbayar,

Apa mungkin aku tidak bersyukur?

Semoga dikurniakan kerendahan hati dan budi pekerti,

Tanda memanjatkan kesyukuran.

Aku punya cita-cita,

Menjadi antara insan terbaik,

Yang berbakti seperti kata hadis.

Semoga Allah meredhai.

Buat teman yang jalannya berbeza,

Percayalah pasti ada hikmah,

Kerana kau pasti gagah,

Kerana kau pasti tabah.

Torn Apart. Medicine or Overseas?

Yeah. Indeed, dua2 pon I nak. I ve been dreaming to study overseas since my height was still sekontot kerusi makan dining table set (hey, now, at least a bit taller than that). And, I ve set my mind and spent time for medicine for at least 2 years.
Semoga yang terbaik untuk semua nanti.
It scares me to think of what does future behold. It is kind of terrifying to think of what I will be doing in few years time. After all, I ask for having imaan in heart and understanding to the wisdom of whatever had happened and whatever will happen.

Btw, I lost my hard disk with all important documents and momentous pictures in it. Not only that, my quran with translation pon hilang. I am still hoping whoever found them will return to me. Having said that, there is actually a very interesting story about the hard disk. To make it short, when I asked the IT department about it, they told me someone had already claimed a hard disk (not sure mine or not, trying to be husnuzhon regarding this) earlier than me and his description on the hard disk is ….well, just like mine.

We can strive to fill our hearts with love and our minds with optimism as we drain our Fountain of Tears and stomp our Mountain of Fears.

In a sea of darkness
Searching for the light
Intisharah and istikharah,
Ask for help, I know He will answer,
Hope is always there
Even in the roughest moments
Hope, I need you
Hope, I want you

I realize,
Everybody suffers
Everybody deals
Everybody copes
Everybody breaks
Everybody hopes
Everybody cries
Don't you cry
There's always hope

Hearts break
Souls die
Hearts shatter
I will not be silenced
Hope always remains
Brother, I need you now
The war's not over yet
Hold onto me, we still have time
Because hope's always there
Even in the darkest times