Torn Apart. Medicine or Overseas?

Yeah. Indeed, dua2 pon I nak. I ve been dreaming to study overseas since my height was still sekontot kerusi makan dining table set (hey, now, at least a bit taller than that). And, I ve set my mind and spent time for medicine for at least 2 years.
Semoga yang terbaik untuk semua nanti.
It scares me to think of what does future behold. It is kind of terrifying to think of what I will be doing in few years time. After all, I ask for having imaan in heart and understanding to the wisdom of whatever had happened and whatever will happen.

Btw, I lost my hard disk with all important documents and momentous pictures in it. Not only that, my quran with translation pon hilang. I am still hoping whoever found them will return to me. Having said that, there is actually a very interesting story about the hard disk. To make it short, when I asked the IT department about it, they told me someone had already claimed a hard disk (not sure mine or not, trying to be husnuzhon regarding this) earlier than me and his description on the hard disk is ….well, just like mine.

We can strive to fill our hearts with love and our minds with optimism as we drain our Fountain of Tears and stomp our Mountain of Fears.

In a sea of darkness
Searching for the light
Intisharah and istikharah,
Ask for help, I know He will answer,
Hope is always there
Even in the roughest moments
Hope, I need you
Hope, I want you

I realize,
Everybody suffers
Everybody deals
Everybody copes
Everybody breaks
Everybody hopes
Everybody cries
Don't you cry
There's always hope

Hearts break
Souls die
Hearts shatter
I will not be silenced
Hope always remains
Brother, I need you now
The war's not over yet
Hold onto me, we still have time
Because hope's always there
Even in the darkest times